As I have been praying the Cross Walk Prayer, lesson prayers
and scriptures, the Lord has been working with me and in me in
several ways: My ability to discern the "unspoken question," the
"real issue," or to see with other eyes has increased in my
interactions with others. Receiving the prompting of the
Holy Spirit for scripture or for the right next question has
increased several fold. Patience, peace and calm in difficult
situations has increased also. I have seen increased levels of
cooperation in the lives of my friends and those I have been
ministering. I have an increase in willingness to discuss
without criticism in some difficult communication issues. I have new willingness to be patient with
those who are less mature in the Faith, struggling with or dealing
with strongholds ... . Most importantly, I see and experience
a greater love among the people to whom I am ministering.
Praise God for His provision and answer to prayer.
I have been getting a huge
amount of healing ever since I started this course. This week,
God has been showing me over and over, how much of a loving God he
really is. For the past 3 years, my wife and I were in a church,
that was very biblical, and doctrinally sound, but it leaned towards the
very strict side and it would make you feel that God was there, ready
to pounce on you if you messed up. The part of the prayer of thanks for
God's law, that states: "forgive me for the times I blamed you for
being such a harsh task master" is one of the areas that I am recovering
from. In my time with God, He is continually ministering love to me and
showing and speaking to me that He just wants to walk with me just
like He did with Adam in the garden. He is a righteous judge, but he is
not sitting there waiting for me to mess up, just so he can squash me.
Healing is sometimes instant and sometimes it takes time, but through it
all God is there just holding me, loving me and bring healing and
freedom to my life.
One thing I have noticed is
that is different is that I have heightened awareness
and sensitivity to what people are saying. At 62 I have some
hearing loss. so I have learned that I must pay attention when
other people are talking anyway. However, this week it was as
if my hearing had improved at least 20% or more. It was far
easier to hear what people were saying and I always seemed to
know intuitively what the correct next question should be. I
felt "tuned into others" in a new and different, much more
sensitive way. Is it an increased sensitivity or a heightened
level of discernment???
I thank God, Jesus and the
Holy Spirit, for what they are doing not only in my life but
in the lives of those around me. May we all continue to be
blessed by new spiritual openness and continuing repentance,
forgiveness and healing in Christ Jesus. Amen
Last week when you read testimonies, I found
it interesting how God worked through one of them. The
testimony that you read about someone at work, and how they were
forming a bitter root (I believe it was) at a person because
they always complained. Well God spoke through that to me and
showed me that I have a situation at work also. I have a
supervisor, who is so nice to me, but he treats others not very
nice at all. I have come to resent him in some ways because of
how he treats people. God brought to my attention that I
occasionally talk about him with a couple other people who feel
the same as I do. I took the situation to God and prayed the
maintenance prayer about it. I haven't been to work since I have
done that, but I trust that God in His mercy, grace and
goodness, has set me free from that.
My mother was severely depressed and didn't leave the house
except to work. Growing up I adopted her personality and
followed her in depression and isolation. Seems I accepted the
attitude "this is me and all I will be." I have tried many
methods of healing but only "ministry" to the inner self has
made the big difference in my healing.
I see the "surface system," "surfaces causes," "root system"
and "causes" as our lesson pointed out. I have asked God for
forgiveness in my part "ungodly inner vows," etc. and forgiving
my parents. This week, I joined a women's weight loss
bible study! This is a big step for me! It is hard for me to be
in a group let alone women I do not even know. I thank God for
the courage to join and socialize with other people at this
level. I thank God for His unconditional love and patience with
me. I give God all the glory!
From Fruit to Root: I
am thankful for going thru restoration prayer ministry. I
learned all about going back to my "roots"- ancestors, parents,
family, childhood, early adulthood. I found where a lot of my
thinking and the "why" I react to things and peopled was built on
past hurts and wounds. The results were strongholds, inner vows and
walls-that I didn't fully realize were there or how powerful they
were in running my life. I learned how to confess my sins, forgive
the sins of my family, forgive myself and recognize ungodly beliefs
and how to replace them with godly truth. I learned how to pray and
renounce my sin and break the power of it and the resulting curses
by the redemptive work of Christ on the Cross. I learned (and am
still learning) how to release my hurts-faults-failures- with the
help of the Holy Spirit.
This restoration has open my spiritual eyes and ears- it is
teaching me discernment and understanding in ministering to others.
I empathize with them. I am them! I have also learned that it is
possible to have God's calling-His anointing - and still have flaws,
weak areas and lessons to be learned.
I am learning all too well the idea of
remorse vs. true repentance... I know that if I allow myself to
be repentant --I must confess--with total honesty--thus exposing
myself and restitution always follows-and I'm not always ready yet
for that--I want "the check to clear the bank"-so to speak. What I
always realize -after the fact - is that it is not a sin of
"spending too much money" or even the sin of "sneaking around" but
the sin of Disobedience--and not disobedience to another human but
disobedience to My Father Himself. Now -given it to me
directly-"disobey your Father"-I would not hurt Him like that--but
give it to me indirectly-like Satan ALWAYS does- I may fall for it-I
hear whispers like "its your money-you work hard everyday-you should
be able to spend it the way you like"- and if MY will-MY want -is
strong enough--and I forget to pray about it-(or don't want to pray
about it)- I make the wrong decision every time----
I remember one time (recently) that I wanted a printer - I
needed a printer--I asked-I tried to pray (I did hear a no but
ignored it) I bought the printer-remorsefully- a day or so later- I
repented- my Father (and another) told me to return it-a day later
-with the returned money still in my packet--my tire on the car was
ruined when I ran over something in the road--because I had the
money back from the return of the printer-I could buy another
tire!!--MY Father spoke loudly to me--TRUST ME WHEN I SAY NO-I am
looking out for you-. THEN --THEN not only was I remorseful but
truly repentant because I saw my TRUE sin--I didn't trust my
Father-I hurt Him with my disobedience. I believe the difference
between remorse and repentance is VISION-when we see that we have
hurt our Father- that we disobeyed HIM with our lack of trust--then
it breaks our heart and we repent.
One thing that has
helped me in my walk with God is my daughter. When she was
born, I immediately fell in love with her, and there was nothing
that I wouldn't do for her. All the time she is growing and
changing and going through things, God has showed me many times
that the way I feel is just a small amount like he feels. For
example, If I call her on the phone to talk to her, and she is
busy on the computer or watching a movie, she doesn't
really give me her full attention and it's hard to talk to her.
God has showed me, that is how he feels when we pray and don't
give Him our full attention when we are doing so. Or the times
we have to say no to something and it hurts to do so, but we
know that it is for the better. God also has to do that. He
wants to give us everything we desire, but wont if it will cause
us harm, or hurt our relationship with Him.
I had a lot of
questions about starting this school -- things like money,
health issues and a very old computer. Two days after I
found about the school a I received a prophetic word saying that
there were answers for all my questions and that this was going
to be a year of activation into the more of God. The next week I
called my pastor and told her about the school she went online
and looked everything over she told me to go for it. She
also ordered my first textbook. Every week she prints my
homework assignment. I have a big God a wonderful and
caring Father. Thank you love and prayers
I had been struggling
with some reservations about being a part of this class
because I felt as if I was doing this behind the
leaders backs even though I knew that this was a leading
from the Holy Spirit to do this because I'm a licensed
minister of the Gospel and God is calling me into
Christ-likeness all the way and I am willing to die to flesh
so that this can be accomplished. He has been preparing me
through crosswalk life website where I would read and listen
to the podcast. I would burn them to CD and listen to
them over and over even when I was sleeping.
This happens whenever the Lord leads me to do something that
does not necessarily have to do with my home church that
takes me out of the area of comfort.
I would get these feeling I didn't understand where it
all came from until the next morning during my time with the
Lord, he began to bring up a lot of things that were very
much connected to this struggling that I was feeling. I
realize now that I had dishonored my parents and even made
bitterroot judgments against them and my siblings so now I
was reaping what I was sowing. I am saying the Cross
Walk Prayer so that I can be free in Jesus. Thank you for
your obedience. I pray that we will all be free to
speak out boldly and not be intimidated the next conference
call to ask questions, share and give testimony. Amen
Shalom
Coming alive after
the class on Spiritual Rebellion!
After hearing this Elijah House School teaching, receiving personal
prayer and reading the homework assignment the following night, I said the
prayer for choosing life. By 10:00 a.m. on Wednesday, I had solved the
problem with one of the financial statements I had been working on for
days. At that point, I felt like the fog had lifted and a weight was off
me. I was on a “high” that I had not experienced in quite some time.
On Saturday morning, I got out of bed at 7:30 a.m., which I have
not done without great prompting in many, many months. My habit had become
to sleep until 9:30 at the earliest. Immediately after getting up, I
walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I have been trying to get back
into the habit of working out for many months. I have been suffering from
chronic tiredness for over a year now.
I had felt for several years, that there was a disconnection in my
brain. Coming up great thoughts and plans to execute them has not been my
problem. The problem has been in the follow through. Somehow, I could not
get myself motivated to accomplish my plans. I feel that God has made all
the connections in my brain since I have repented of my spiritual
rebellion.
God has restored my energy and self-discipline. I cannot adequately
express the joy that I feel in my heart at this change in myself. God is
also restoring the Boldness that I have always felt in my spirit, but have
been unable to completely express to others. I can see myself
accomplishing great things as God directs them in me. There are still
several things to walk out and work out, but I have found my map and am on
my way!
I am finally coming alive in God! Thank you, Elijah House School!
I would highly recommend the Elijah House School
It has been very enjoyable. I only regret that we have time limitations
and that we cannot spend even more time fully digesting the information.
(We have already expanded the class from the original 2 1/2 hours to 3 1/2
hours.) "A fellow teacher"
This class has made me realize the need for prayer counseling.
Through the Elijah House School, Christians around the world can be taught
to minister to other Christians. I had been to a secular counselor and
became more confused than I was before I went. I could not only have
saved money, but could have had a closer relationship with God. Now I
know how to trace from the "fruit to the root" and knowing the root of the
matter can start real change in one's life.
New Power through the Elijah House School
I learned that condemning judgments and dishonoring of parents can cause
the problem to come back on you. Since I have learned the Cross Walk
prayer, I am praying it all through the day and I am teaching it to my 3
children. We have already experienced real change from so many things in
the class. I now say "I got the power!"
Thank you, Carlotta, for your love and friendship
It really means so much to me. One of the areas I am trying to develop is
believing people really do care about me. Oftentimes, I succumb to the
belief that I am a burden to others and that I and my concerns don't
matter to anyone. Those are the times I withdraw and I become
isolated. But more and more I am beginning to resist this tendency
and I reach out to friends like you who have faithfully loved me and
encouraged me in all things. I have never received such love and
acceptance before.
Thank you, Cross Walk Life
Elijah House School is a must for every
Christian Counselor!
I
never cease to be amazed at the new revelations that I find in John and
Paula Sandford's books and teachings. They are surely the Father
and Mother of emotional healing. I look back and wonder how I have
made it this far in life without these teachings. Now, I define
counseling as helping people to apply the Word of God to their
individual situations so that they can line up with God's wisdom and
truth.
I was well practiced in many mental health modalities,
but have learned that we were unintentionally leading our clients
astray. Now I know that no matter how experienced and well-trained
the counselor, how well the client understands their issues, how sincere
the effort to modify their behavior -- patterns are not broken by
re-deciding!
Now that I understand the law of sowing and reaping, I
realize that we are bound to reap what we sow, until we repent, no
matter how well we analyze and understand the problem! We do reap
what we sow, more and later, no matter what or who we believe in. How
simple God's way is. We can just repent of sowing destructive
patterns, judging others, dishonoring others and blaming God for the
results. As we begin to sow good seed we allow Him to live His
supernatural life through us!
I would like to also - once again -
thank
Center for Biblical Studies in Tallahassee, Florida and Gulf Coast School of Ministry
in Destin, Florida,
for hosting our Elijah House Basic Schools in the past -- 2000-2004.
Let us know if you would like information about hosting
an Elijah House School at your ministry or church. One semester
can be covered by attending full-time for one week or by attending
weekly for 12 weeks.
Making ready a people and preparing the
way!
Carlotta Waldmann, Founder of Cross Walk Life
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